I am disgusting.

I am devastated

is 6 years an awkward age difference??

and could you see a 26 year old crushing on someone that much younger??

Just trying to get some perspective here.

I've been happier and a lot less anxious. I think it started with the fact that I'm no longer head over heels for someone who doesn't really care a whole lot. I don't know.

Who is this new guy? And why does this feel so different? I don't know what to do with myself. But I feel like everything is going to be okay.

ramble

you make me feel alive

What a conflicting situation. To have a positive but also negative experience collide simultaneously. How often does that happen? I may as well have said "This is depressing but I'm so excited". Like eating pizza with pineapple as a topping. Why would you do that huh? To ruin a pizza like that just boggles the mind.

I think the summer heat is starting to screw with me. Psychologically anyway.

in case you ever forget, I'm still in love with you.

I watch his videos once in a while so I don’t forget him.

He said he likes me, but he’s way to experienced.

And I’m way too inexperienced.

I’m scared.