I haven’t been on here in awhile...but I was really feeling lonely and wanting someone to be there for me so I decided to see how everyone is doing and to spill my guts to y’all. I am at a point in my life where I know I’m not ready for a relationship mentally or emotionally. I’m just so focused on finishing college and going to law school that I don’t even know if I would have time for a boy in my life. But that doesn’t mean I don’t really need someone to be there for me. That doesn’t mean I wish so badly I had someone who loved and supported me who wasn’t my mom. It doesn’t mean that I don’t want for a guy to like me and talk to me. For someone to make me laugh, be there when I’m depressed or when I have an anxiety attack. For someone to be my #1 fan and for me to be theirs. I keep telling myself I’m just not in the right mindset for a guy but I’m terrified that I never will be. I’m so scared that I’ll be too nervous or fool myself into thinking that I’m not ready and I’ll end up missing my chance. I always say “I’m a strong independent woman who doesn’t need a man” but sometimes just like tonight when I’m trying to fall asleep I feel like I do. Hopefully someday my prince will come. But until then I’ll be here patiently waiting and just trying to fall asleep.
Have you ever notice that some people in your life are irreplaceable?
That they leave a hole in your heart... and nothing can seem to patch it back up.
No matter... how hard you try...
I just want to give you a hug. Everything will work out for you. It's going to be ok.