You make me want to be a better person. You make me want to go to church and have a closer relationship with God. You make me want to volunteer and donate to charities more. You make me want to exercise, eat healthy, and just look after myself. You make me want to take risks, be outgoing, be more confident, be more accepting. You make me want to take everything this world has to offer. You make me want to stop cussing, while at the same time you make me want to shout to the world how much I fucking adore you. Is this what love feels like?

I fear I’m too much. I fear I come across as cold and cryptic. Sometimes I fear I laugh too loud, talk more than necessary, and give myself away too easily; I fear that I can easily be read because I am an open book. I fear I am too sensitive, boring, or too confusing and obnoxious. I fear, but I don’t fear you.. and I’m learning how to stop fearing me..

I love the little things about her, the tiny moments in life that show me how completely pure her heart is.

Like the fact that whenever she sees an ambulance or firetruck with flashing lights, she immediately holds up her hands in the "I love you" sign...she says it's her way of sending love and best wishes to whoever they're on their way to.

Or when the man running the drive-thru at Tim Horton's accidentally dumped her entire coffee into her lap and front seat...but she simply laughed and said "Well I do come here to wake myself up...A on creativity!" to make him feel better.

And how after our first fight (where I was totally at fault) she slipped a note under my front door saying that she was furious with me, but reminding me that she still loved me even while calming down.

I've never met a human being with so much compassion and love to give. I'm going to marry her someday, and I know that makes me the luckiest loser in this entire world.


me: imagining cuddling with him, wanting to talk to him as much as possible, super comfortable with him, thinking about him constantly

also me: hmm, idk if I like him

I took one look at him, and knew he was extremely dangerous. He has “heartbreaker“ written all over him.

Then I had a conversation with him. He’s beyond nice- he’s...genuinely sweet...and oblivious of how hot he is.

Put a fork in me, I’m done.

feelings are confusing and i can't put them into words and i just need to find a nice field to yell in

What goes away from you is not to be chased after. What comes towards you is to be embraced.

It is how well you loved and let go that determines the quality of your life.

These quotes are what I need to embrace right now. My future is coming towards me. It is clear now, and I have the ability to succeed now.

But you, you are no longer coming towards me, and I must let you go. I must continue to love those that are in my life and that want to know the depth and breadth of me.

But I must stop myself from chasing after those that don't. You lose the rich textures of me. You lose the deep and abiding joy I so often feel. You lose, because you choose to lose, and I cannot let myself hurt for someone who does not see enough value in me to make it worth it for them!

A concept:

Me. Lying down on a light blue sheet stretched out on the grass. Wearing a white tshirt that smells faintly of laundry detergent. My hair, somewhat wavy still from the shower, splayed out behind me. Feeling lazy, hazy with the warmth of the sun.

And you. Leaning back on your elbows and absentmindedly placing grapes into your mouth every few moments or so. Plucking nearby dandelions and assigning them to places in my hair, your fingers lingering for a couple extra moments around my temples. Squinting into the sun.

We have nowhere to be. We don't know what time it is. We have nothing to talk about. We just are.

i want to take you to the ocean so you can see my love for you, if it were something you could see, hear, smell, feel and immerse yourself in.

last night I cried when I thought of how much I love you. I love you so much but I guess you don’t feel the same.

it just really sucks when you love someone who doesn’t love you back

how do I just move on

I want to so I can be back to my happy self

everyone wants to be happy but I just can’t get you out of my head